An ode to hope

An ode to hope

I wonder where you went away,

are you truly dead?

or lost to us all?

either way you cease to exist.

even now that you have gone,

your spirit still lingers long,
i still,

feel you in the Internationale,

hear you in a child's laugh,

see you in spring’s blossom.

and i know most believe your still alive,

but I know it’s a beautiful lie,
why did you go away?
leaving us all astray.

I wonder where you went to die,

in desperation I search every kind eye,

look what i have become,

a mendicant now,
here without hope.

in desperation,

I looked for you in the Styx,

in flowing death,

wishing to find,

remnants of your life,

and

I looked for you in Rishikesh,

in flowing life,

wishing to find,

remnants of your death,
i wonder where you went to die.

hope’s last fleeting steps,

across desolate mindscape,

my last memory,

of the great immortal,

infected with mortality.

i wonder where you went to die

i know why you went to die

I wrote this three days back and reworked it today. Something is off here and i'm not happy with this one :( unfortunately I seem to be getting progressively worse instead of getting better. sigh...


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Smile like u mean it

just wish me luck.

getting closer, can't see it

sensing it with none of my senses,

my heart beats in tandem,

with the devil himself,

i hear the whispers,

"don't fight it,

don't run,

it will be over soon,

just smile like u mean it,

smile and say goodbye"

i hear the whispers,

i hear it,

as it constricts my chest,

this blanket,

of needles and venom,

warmth in frigid reality.

it was on nights like this,

i remembered,

how much i fought,

to see sense in the system,

i tried to see the light,

sometimes i saw it ur in smile,

but, it was unreal too,

in desperation i tried,

to be with u all,

to be without u all.

blood glides gracefully

away from the being it fuels.

i hear the familiar tune,

its the songbird.

it will never change.

playing over and over,

the same song ,

till it finds peace,

or finds itself in pieces.

just wish me luck,

it is coming and i have no voice,

not my will,

just my need,

i need to be free,

i need to feel,

like the person,

in those beautiful,

pictures – flawless.

and now i hear it

i hear the whispers

"don't fight it,

don't run,

it will be over soon,

just smile like u mean it,

smile and say goodbye"

i hear the whispers,

i hear it,

and i feel fear,

i feel alone,

wishing for peace,

as unreal as ur smile.

Just something i wrote. I don't really like this one, not like i love my other 'poems' (if u can call them that!) but this one i particularly don't like. I'm posting this cause i have nothing else to post!

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